Saturday 23rd June 2018 (Bipolar Thoughts)

I don’t even know how to describe how I’m feeling. For the last week my thoughts have been so bipolar and overactive and I actually cannot control it and today I actually got a real headache from it. The only the I’m sure of right now is that I’m alive and I’m breathing, but any other aspect of life I’m so lost because I can’t control my thoughts or even think for that matter.

I did come up with something about these erratic thoughts today and I think I feel like I’ve finally 100% realised that everything I’ve known that “I want” is not attainable and going back and forth questioning that and trying to challenge it, but nothing feels real anymore and/but I don’t know.

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