The only thing that I’m worried about is my life (in terms of living). I know people say “you have time” and all that, and as I just typed that I realised I’ve probably written this post more than a thousand times, but I’m so behind compared to most people I started at the same time/same level with, and it makes me sick. 23 years into life and I haven’t even started it yet.
I was meant to have an interview for a marketing job (finally), and you’ve been following me for a while, you would kind of gathered that self-worth and “dem tings deya,” isn’t exactly a trait of mine. With that being said, I was very confident that I would get this job, and it was a perfect foundation for me to kick on with my life. But guess what happened…
(to be honest, you should guess it because it’s the only thing anyone is talking about)
Coronavirus. Coronavirus has come to fuck up everything, and my interview got cancelled. This is 100% a worldwide issue that is affecting everyone, but I’ve always said, anytime I’m almost at a place to reach a goal or to attain some type of happiness, something always happens to fuck it up FROM ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE! Yes, this is affecting everyone, not just me. But who knew you could live a life with a 0% success rate in everything.
Currently, my mum is not in the country. And although I’m fine right now, there is no way I would be able to look after or sustain myself. How can I pay bills and buy food? It’s impossible. I don’t even have a job right now…What an absolute joke.